A friend reminded me of this verse recently. God HAS been doing a new thing in me for awhile now. Not going to lie, it has been a tough season in my journey. In previous posts I have talked about change, being in a dark tunnel and having so many anchors in my life taken away or changed in some way.
Had God NOT allowed some of these things to happen, I'm not sure I'd be on the path I am on now....the path of marriage. God knew what I needed to bring me to this point.
So now a new chapter begins ..... one that is both exciting and terrifying at the same time! Every little girl's dream is to find her "knight in shining armor", "the man of her dreams", "the one" ... however you want to say it. God's timing is perfect. I can honestly say, without doubt, that until now I was not ready to be married. I needed to face and deal with things from my past that caused hurt and a view of God that was incorrect. I needed to learn to trust ... people and God. I needed to learn what real love looks like. I need to learn how to be a friend.I needed to accept friendship. I needed to learn what true community is. I needed to learn to speak truth to myself. I needed to let go. I needed to hold on. I needed to be honest with God, myself and others. I needed to learn who I was in God and because He loves me and gave himself for me. I needed to get involved in some small groups/bible studies. I needed to learn to be free in my worship and not care what others think. I needed time.
I needed the last 28 years (since graduating from college) - God needed the last 28 years to prepare me for this next big change and part of my journey.
I am marrying an amazing man. He loves me for who I am ... this strong, introverted, independent women. He loves Jesus. He loves my family. He loves my close friends. He's kind, gracious and giving of his time and resources. He strives to be a better man and follower of Jesus.
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God IS doing a new thing in me. God HAS prepared of way in the wilderness for me. God has provided water in the midst of my desert ... through the Holy Spirit, His grace and people in my life.
I see it now.
