I've mentioned going through a two year tough patch, both in my personal and professional life...both affecting and challenging my faith. There were times the tunnel seemed so long and so dark that I wasn't sure when I would feel "normal" again. (whatever that means! haha)
A year ago this past week I went through another major fusion surgery. At that same time, my best friend moved and started her own new faith journey. I have worked through rehab, being frustrated at where I am physically. Worked through learning a "new normal" with friendship and was faced with, again, learning to trust a God I can't see with stuff I constantly have struggled with in life: insecurity, losses, trust, letting go, being "alone", etc.
I have learned there is no time table. No one experiences things the same way. God knows what we each need, when we need it. The only thing I know is that God has my back, has ALWAYS had my back and uses others to "have my/our back(s).
A year later, I am engaged and soon to leave a place I have finally found to call home, a church I found community in and friends I have found for life. But in all of that I have found my faith stronger, my love for God deeper, my wounds healing and my friendships so much deeper then when I first came to this "farm land"!
And because God knows I need constant affirmation and assurances, he has given me friends who willingly do that time and again : ) He has given me further affirmation of recent decisions that blow my mind, and allow me to "go in peace".
God is good ..... gracious ..... kind .....just ..... patient
